Welcome to the American dream…

Posted: January 5, 2011 by fischfail in Uncategorized

This is going to be a loooong one, I apologise as there is no general direction or plan with this post….

Papa Roach ~ Between Angels and Insects

There’s no money. There’s no possessions,
only obsession. I don’t need that shit.
Take my money, take my obsession.

I just want to be heard loud and clear are my words.
Coming from within man tell them what you heard.
It’s about a revolution in your heart and in your mind
you can find a conclusion. Lifestyle and obsession.
Diamond rings get you nothing but a life long lesson
And your pocketbooks stressing
You’re a slave to the system working jobs that you hate
For that shit you don’t need
It’s too bad the world is based on greed.
Step back and see.
Stop thinking about yourself start thinking about..

There’s no money there’s no possession only
Obsession I don’t need that shit
Take my money take my possession take my obsession
I don’t need that shit

Because everything is nothing
And emptiness is in everything
This reality is really just a fucked up dream
With the flesh and the blood that you call your soul
Flip it inside out it’s a big black hole.
Take your money burn it up like an asteroid.
Possessions: they are never gonna feel the void.
Take it away and learn the best lesson
The heart, the soul, the life, the passion.

There’s no money there’s no possession
Only obsession I don’t need that shit
Take my money take my possession take my obsession
I don’t need that shit.
Money. possessions. obsession.

Present yourself.press your clothes comb your hair.
Clock in.
You just can’t win just can’t win
And the things you own own you
Now!

Take my money take my possession take my obsession
I don’t need that shit
Fuck your money fuck your possession fuck your
Obsession I don’t need that shit.
Money, possession, obsession, I don’t need that shit.

Isn’t that the truth?  I told myself I wouldn’t make a post during this depressive funk, and yet here I am.  The lyrics above are pretty straight forward, especially, “You’re a slave to the system working jobs that you hate.”  For those of you who know me, you all know that I despise my job, every day that I go to it, I feel less and less human.  This week, I got paid (we are on a bi-weekly pay system, which I think is a bullshit term) on Monday, by Tuesday, I was left with $2.27.  There is still a week and a half before my next paycheck. I don’t honestly know what I am going to do anymore, and I can’t pretend that I even care anymore. Literally, everyday that I actually have to work, I have to drag myself out of bed, force my lifeless/beaten body to my car, then force myself to drive the 20 or so minutes to work, and then pretend (without absolute animosity) to not only appreciate my job (which I do, just like I would greatly appreciate no lecturing about “being lucky to have a job”) but be happy about being there. Because, if for one moment my bosses realize that I hate everything about my job, I get taken off the schedule (laid-off is the incorrect term, especially since you receive some sort of benefit for that).

So, the idea is this:  You get a job to pay for your shit, but that job blows, so you don’t have enough to pay for even the necessities, yet alone all the worthless shit that you “need.”  But, because I do not want this blog to be all about depression and focusing on rants, I am going to end this post now, before I reveal more than I care to.  Believe me, there is a lot more going on, but that doesn’t matter right now.

Go figure, that I will be at work, hating myself a little more, when this is released for you all to read it.

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Comments
  1. luzob says:

    When it comes down to it, these are some shitty days, especially when one believes one must take them on alone. Just know these shitty days aren’t yours alone to deal with. We’re here for you. No homo, though 😉

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